What Lies Ahead
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Happy Black History Month, y’all! We’ve made it through January, and now we’re headed into one of the Blackest months of the year. I always look forward to February because there is so much to learn and so many events to attend. I know I won’t have the energy to do everything I want, but I will be able to muster enough to do a few things.
In fact, the MLK screening (mentioned in the newsletter) I was supposed to attend in January was rescheduled to mid-February because of the snow, so that is one thing I’m looking forward to. Another is Reading a Dress: Fashioning Black Women’s Histories, a Black History lecture on Black American women’s fashion of the 18th and 19th centuries, and “how they can open a portal into a rich facet of American history.”
So far, those are the only events I’ve registered for. I might do one or two more this month. I just don’t know exactly what. Either way, I’m looking forward to whatever February will bring!
One thing I’m sort of looking forward to is the gay bar scene, and the reason I say “sort of” is because I’m a total introvert and haven’t been to a gay bar in so long. Like, years! The last one I went to was boring as hell, and the demographic was significantly white and older. The place I have in mind isn’t going to be any less white, but from the bar’s social media, these people seem to be around my age. So, at least I know that I’ll possibly have something in common with these people. I also saw a sprinkle sprankle of Black people in the photos, so hopefully I won’t be the only one on whichever night I choose to attend.
Honestly, not only has my introversion prevented me from going out to bars, but my nerves have stopped me, too. I don’t know what the fuck I’m gonna say to people or how I’ll even strike up a conversation. Hell! I don’t even know what I’m going to wear or how I’ll do my makeup, but I do know that I will go this time. I have to. I can’t keep avoiding “the wild” because I’m nervous or don’t feel like leaving the house.
Well, sometimes not leaving the house is okay, but not every weekend.
I’ve just got to push myself to do the things: socialize, visit a new place, see what’s going on, maybe make a new friend or two, and possibly be part of something bigger than myself. I know, it’s just a damn club, but lots of people from all walks of life are there. And I’ll never know who I’ll meet that’ll change my life or teach me something new if I never even leave my house.
So, I’m gonna be a brave girl and give this a shot. I’ll try to take pictures so I can post them later, but I can’t make any guarantees. I prefer to be in the moment when it comes to stuff like this, so I often forget to snap photos or record videos. However, I will absolutely write all about it and give my 2¢ afterwards. That’s for damn sure! So, wish me luck!
Until next time … peace, love, and happiness! ☮️🩷😄
